I need to start this off with a heartbreaking (at least to me) announcement. I will not be able to run the 2018 New York Marathon. I have had too many injuries and health issues to train for this marathon. I know that I could run with hardly any training (the Grandma Marathon), but I didn’t want to go through that again. Also, I feel that the New York Marathon deserves more respect than that. I have dreamed about running New York for years and I want to do it right! I plan on doing it right.
I have already been guaranteed a spot on the 2019 Team Fox Running Team for New York.
For those of you who are unfamiliar with the Team I am running with/for: I am running to raise money for The Michael J Fox Foundation for Parkinson's Research, Team Fox. I love this foundation! Team Fox is amazing and I am proud to be a member. This group has been supportive beyond my wildest dreams. This is one of the few charity groups where all of the money raised goes toward research. I have friends and co-workers who have been directly affected by Parkinson's, so this is personal.
I need to make a confession...if you know me, you will understand why this is hard for me to say…. I suck at raising money. I have made a large commitment to this foundation and I have not made a dent in what I agreed to raise. I am asking for friends, strangers, co-workers, family members and business owners for help. I need donations or what I am really asking for is sponsorship. I will do anything (almost) to get your support. I will wear a dress to work, sing a song for the whole internet, babysit your kids, do your laundry, do any dance you can think of on YouTube, wash your car, decorate your house for Christmas or whatever you can think of! Yes, I know what I am saying, but I can’t do this without your help. I will also run the hell out of the New York City Marathon. I will proudly put your name on my marathon shirt!
I know that I have not kept up very well with my running blog… most of you probably didn’t even know I had one. Well, I DO! I am committing myself to spending this next year journaling my running life on my way to the best marathon I have ever run, NEW YORK CITY, Baby! My goal for this marathon is… start over. I am going to train in a completely different way. I want to finish in 5 hours. I have been a sllllllloooooowww runner in the past. I have a year to change that. I am going to completely change my training and I want to write about it. The deal is I would love for everyone to read about it, maybe learn something….maybe get some inspiration from me and my journey….or maybe just laugh a little.
Below is the link to my fundraising page. Please just take a look and sponsor me in my endeavor and also help get rid of Parkinsons! Thanks for reading!
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Running is a Gift!
Tuesday, October 30, 2018
Saturday, November 5, 2016
Running Perspective
I “beat the bridge” and I conquered the
MCM 2016! I had an absolutely amazing
weekend in DC. This race was important
for so many reasons (to me). It may
sound cliché but I believe it in every way.
This race changed me. The change
was small but extremely significant. I
have already posted about how the training for this race changed me, but the
race itself created some changes in perspective. There are things about that day that I could
never put into words, so I am just going to keep those in my hear t.
Please keep in mind that these are observations are from me
and should be taken in that context.
There were several different types of runners that ran with me on
Sunday. There were the runners, who
would finish the race in the same amount of time that most people run a half
marathon. These runners are serious and
I have to be honest I don’t know any runners like this and I don’t really
understand them. I am just going to move
on……There are the runners who are considered the average marathon runners. They run a marathon a little faster and avoid
most injury. I am trying very hard to
work my way into this group. These
runners finish any where from 4 hours to 5 ½ hours. I look up to these runners. These runners inspire me and challenge me. They also show me that IT is possible. Most of my running friends are in this group
and I have so much respect and love for them. I ran the first half of the MCM
with these runners. Granted, I was in
the back half of this pack but I was with them.
Then there is my group of runners. These runners are all heart! In what we lack physically, by injury,
physical exhaustion or age we make up for in heart. I ran the second half of the race with
them. These are the runners who will not
quit! You never see these runners
stopping. They are always moving
forward. Let me tell you a little bit
more about these runners. These runners
are people who started with the goal to finish.
Some of them wanted to finish stronger, but their bodies had other
plans. The heart that these runners have
is one of the most inspiring things I have ever experienced. I am going to try very hard to put into words
the truly amazing things I saw Sunday. I
hope I can do them justice.
There was a couple running in my group of runners. They had to have been in their 70’s. The wife was running at a steady pace, but
her companion was struggling. He would
run a short distance and then walk. His
wife (I assume that is who she was) would run back to check on him. I bet she ran 36 miles by the end of it. You could tell that this was not what he was
accustomed to. He was a Runner and he
was in disbelief that his body was revolting like it was. He began to voice his frustration by saying
things like “I used to be a runner and now I am just a damn walker” or “this is
stupid, I should just quit.” I finally
looked at him and asked him why he was even out here. I asked him to look around, did he see anyone
who wasn’t giving it everything they had?
He teared up a little and continued with everything he had. He never said another negative word. He finished that race and I hope he was proud
of himself.
Around mile 24, I noticed a woman who was bent over at the
waist. Her legs were moving but it was
like the top half of her body had just folded.
It was obvious that she was in pain.
I don’t know if the pain was from injury or exhaustion. I watched her for a few minutes kind of
confused as to why she wouldn’t just stop.
Then out of nowhere came two women, who I assume were her friends, and
she put her arms around their shoulders.
These three women moved forward.
They didn’t let that woman stop even though they were exhausted too. I offered to help carry her, but they didn’t
want my help. That’s heart!
I saw a man who was limping so severely that I hurt for
him. I saw a woman incredibly overweight,
who was running as fast as she could.
She was on a mission. I saw a lot
of heart. I was running and
concentrating so hard on just keeping my legs moving, when I heard someone say
excuse me. I looked back and saw a woman
about my age. I slowed down and got even
with her. She looked at me and said “you
have been an inspiration to me most of this race.” I looked at her and thought “ME?”. I was confused, why on earth would she say
that to me? She continued saying “I have
been looking at the back of your shirt.”
(I was wearing a yellow tank top… on the back it says “never give up”
and “it takes all you got”) she
explained that the saying on my shirt and the fact that I never stopped, kept
her going. I was blown away by
this. I have thought about this a
lot. I never considered myself an
inspiration, until a complete stranger from Iowa told me.You never know who is looking to you for inspiration, so all
you can do is put your heart into it.
Every person, who runs a marathon, has
a personal goal that they are reaching for. That goal maybe a PR,
conquering a fear, proving you are a badass, or just to finish something that
less than 1% of the population of the USA ever has. Running a marathon
takes a lot of hard work and a lot of heart. I am grateful to the people
who ran the MCM 2016 for changing my perspective. On to the next adventure....
Side note:
I have a good friend, who is running the New York City Marathon in the
morning. Enjoy yourself and never take the experience for granted.
Jenn, RUN YOUR ASS OFF!!!!!!
Friday, October 28, 2016
Grateful
Today I fly out
and head to DC. I am both excited and
nervous, which is half of the fun of a marathon. I also get to see my best friend! I can’t wait.
Ok, now down to the reason for this post. I mentioned in my last post that I would be
creating a list of the 26 things I am most grateful for, one for each
mile. I have come up with my list and I
am excited about it. These are not in
any order of importance.
I am grateful for…
Mile 1 – Running
and all of it’s challenges
Mile 2 – Kanon
Mile 3 – My high
school friends and My college friends
Mile 4 – My Boos
Mile 5 – My family
Mile 6 – All of
the hard times I have experienced (they made me)
Mile 7 – God
Mile 8 – My
self-doubt
Mile 9 – My
confidence
Mile 10 – Music
and books
Mile 11 – The
ability to see beauty
Mile 12 – The
friends who have stuck by me and never judged me
Mile 13 – Amy
Mile 14 – The
children I get to introduce Art to
Mile 15 – God
making me a lesbian (and sexy)
Mile 16 – Laughter
and Tears
Mile 17 – Sarra
Mile 18 – This
moment
Mile 19 – Beating
The Bridge!
Mile 20 – Fear
(overcoming it and embracing it)
Mile 21 - Gina
Mile 22 –
Understanding that I can do anything
Mile 23 – The
runners beside me
Mile 24 – Sami,
Fletch, and Andrew
Mile 25 –
Overcoming depression and anxiety
Mile 26 – This
being the Last MILE
.2 – for the
people who fought for this country and gave me the freedom to run this race
There
is my list. When you run a race like
this it is easy to only think about yourself and how you feel. The race can become all about you, the miles
behind, and the miles ahead. I probably
will not be able to not think about that, but I don’t want to take this
experience or adventure for granted. I
am grateful for the life I have led so far and the life I am going to lead. I don’t know if I will ever have another
opportunity to do another marathon, so I want this one to mean something.
I
have set up an instagram account (kcannon6017) and you can follow me through
out the weekend. I will be posting
pictures the whole weekend. I also will
post after the marathon to let everyone know how I did. Thanks for all of the support. See you on the other side of the BRIDGE.
Saturday, October 22, 2016
26 Things
7 more days! This thought hit me like a punch in the chest this morning. 7 days from today I will be in DC running 26.2 miles. This both excites me and scares me at the same time. I have to be honest, it is an intense high. I love it! I am really excited because this will be my first major race. The MCM is one that thousands of people are dying to do. I was picked to attempt it out of thousands. I can’t wait to feel that excitement, the energy in the air is going to be awesome! Don’t get me wrong, I still have the same anxieties and fears about this race. I think that is normal. Earlier this week I almost let that steal this excitement that I feel, but a thought creeped in during one of these moment stealing events. I have been given a gift: I CAN run, There is NOTHING preventing me from running.
Running is a gift. Think about that for a second… there are so many things in life we take for granted. There are people in this world, who would run 50 marathons, if only they could. The thing that I take for granted is something they can’t do. It is not about having the endurance or the mental strength, they physically can’t. All of the runners out there, imagine that you woke up tomorrow and your legs couldn’t run anymore. I often think about the people whose ability to run was stolen from them that day in Boston. They were approaching the finish of a marathon and suddenly their lives changed.
I have people in my life who can’t run and never will be able to. I feel like an ass when I talk about how slow I am or if I can beat some bridge. I take running for granted. There is a little boy, who has my heart. He is just starting his life and he will never be able to run like I do. As much as I hate this fact, there is nothing I can do to change this. All I can do is pray that HE finds his own passion and doesn’t ever take it for granted. I promise this little guy that I will do everything in my power to never again take running for granted. I wear his name on my shoe when I run and I will have his name under my running tattoo next Sunday.
There are a lot of things that we all take for granted: a roof over our head, food in our refrigerator, cars, jobs, education, family etc… I can only speak for me, but I don’t want to lose something before I realize how important it is or was to me. I especially don’t want my wonderful life to end and not to have thanked God for everything I have. I want to live a life where I don’t spend anymore time taking things for granted. I want to explore what life has to offer, the things I have never had the courage to try. What do I have to lose by trying? The real question is what do I lose if I don’t try?
I find myself worrying about things and becoming consumed with what ifs. I really don’t want to waste anymore time on that. I am a realist though. This a habit that I have to break. I want to be grateful for every breath that I take. There is only one way to do that, PRACTICE. I am going to take this marathon and use it to help change the way I think. I am going to spend this week realizing 26 things that I am grateful for. I will spend each corresponding mile focusing on how grateful I am for that blessing. I want God and everyone to know what I am grateful for. Before I leave for DC on Friday I will post those 26 things. If you want to do the same I will run those 26 miles for you too, so you can be grateful and realize how blessed you are as well.
Life (running) is amazing and we all need to break through fears and conquer fear before it is all gone. I am realizing that the true way to happiness and fulfillment is to thank God everyday for all of your life. Let’s not wait until it is all gone. We need to embrace our lives!
Thursday, October 6, 2016
Beat The Bridge
Sorry I am a little late with this post, time got away from me. Let me
catch you up a little on my marathon training progress. This past Sunday, I ran……17 Miles!!! The most awesome part was that I could walk
the next day. I had a little soreness
but the only real pain I had was in my shoulder (don’t ask because I don’t
know). I have proven to myself that I
can run 26.2 Miles again. there is still something that scares the shit out of me. Something I
think about all day long. It is always
in my brain. Can I "beat the bridge"?? In the Marine Corp Marathon you have to “beat
the bridge” to be able to continue and finish to get your medal. To “beat the bridge” you must completely
cross the 14th street Bridge by 1:15 PM.
So many things scare me about this.
Can I "beat the bridge"? I honestly don’t know. I do know that I need to turn my thinking
around about this stupid bridge. So far,
all I can think about is not beating the bridge. I have spent very little time thinking about
actually beating the damn thing. It is a
known fact that I have spent most of my life being the glass is half empty kind
of girl. I have to change that, not only
in my running, but also in my life. I am
going to use this wonderful writing outlet to put all of my doubts and fears on
the table.
I guess I should start with my biggest
fear. I am terrified of not “beating the
bridge” and having to go home with not having accomplished my goal. In other words, I am afraid to fail. I get a stomachache when I think about people
asking me “did you finish?” and having to say “No”. I understand in theory that my friends and
family won’t hold it against me, but I would hold it against myself so why
wouldn’t they. This may sound silly and
a little crazy, but it is a real fear in my head. I have spent most of my life making sure I
didn’t do anything that I could result in a flat failure. It has only been recently that I have made a
conscience effort to force myself out of that thought process. Still it is a hard habit to break. This leaves me with two choices: Quit or Try.
If I am completely honest with myself…..
I am a little concerned about not pushing myself hard enough. What I mean is that I constantly ask myself “am
I working hard enough”? There are more days than not that I say no to
that question. I know there is another
level to my effort, my ability and me. I
am just at a loss as how to achieve it. Trust
me when I say this, I spend a lot of time reading articles and books about
running. I am constantly trying to find
that insight that will change my whole running lifestyle. That is almost my answer for everything,
READING. If I have a problem, that is
always my first instinct, to read a book on the topic. This is very hard for me to say…..reading
about running has not worked to push me harder, run faster or cure all my
mental fears. The people who know me
will understand that took a lot for me to admit. Once again, I have to look inside and find
these answers. Sigh…..
This is a thing I have talked about
before, but I have to mention it briefly.
What if I am just not good enough at running to actually “beat the
bridge”? What if no matter how hard I
train, try to think positive thoughts I can’t do it? As I am writing this, I see that is crap and
not true at all. I am not even going to
continue this paragraph because that just isn’t true.
Now that I have put my fears on the table, I
need to face them and spit in fear’s face.
If I don’t “beat the bridge”, I won’t die. I won’t be fired from my job. My family will not avoid my calls. I will not have friends’ unfriend me on facebook. If I look at it like that what do I have to
lose? Nothing that really matters. Now
if I quit and don’t try as hard as I can….. I will lose a lot more. I will lose respect for myself; I would have
a hard time living with quitting. I vow to everyone reading this I will fail
way before I EVER quit. I injured myself
in my first marathon, couldn’t run at all.
I didn’t quit I walked as hard as I could for 10 Miles because there was
no way I was going to look at my Dad and tell him I quit. That was not acceptable, quitting. Don’t get me wrong quitting because of a
major injury is the smart thing to do, but I am not always smart. I am stubborn though.
I read a quote the other day (it was on
my daily running calendar) and I have thought about that quote all week. It said, “Running a marathon is not a physical challenge, it is a mental one.” This statement is so true. I know from talking to many people who have
run a marathon. There comes a point with
all of us where you have to be stronger mentally than you ever have to be
physically. I have two good friends,
who say something to me all the time…”I wish you could see yourself through our
eyes.” I say that I am going to
try. Here is my declaration!!!!!!:
· I will
only be positive (about everything).
Time to try being a glass is half full girl for a while
·
I will work on concentrating on having
success instead of failure.
· I will make “I will BEAT THE BRIDGE!” my new
mantra
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